one evening...

Some

claim they are just words,

meaningless fragments

of nothing 

scattered 

about my paper.

Some

claim they are used carelessly,

shattering plates of clear

colorful glass.

But

to me

they are passionate stars,

magically absorbed

So each one I give to you

please hold tightly.

My words have wings.

-Martha Reinhardt

:)

“Life is the art of drawing without an eraser.”

Changing the world is good for those who want their names in books.

But being happy, that is for those who write their names in the lives of others, and hold the hearts of others as the treasure most dear.

I know an angel, she doesn't wear any wings.

"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter"

-e.e cummings

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.

oh, I am ready for you.

It's always really interesting to go back and reread old blog posts & you know what, this past year has definitely had its ups & downs. A roller-coaster ride of emotions would be one way to poorly describe it.

I've learned alot about myself this past year: what pushes me to the edge, what makes me smile (family & friends), what I care about, what I don't care about, what I like, what I dislike. It's not like I didn't know some of this stuff beforehand, but I surely learned a few new things or so.

Anyways, I'll keep it short & sweet. I've got my new year's resolutions and will I share them with you? Maybe.

Today I am thankful for my momma. She has unconditional love, whether I'm a good daughter or not & I should show her that I appreciate it. That's an understatement.

It's sad when people you know, become people you knew

Right now I want a word that describes the feeling that you get- a cold sick feeling, deep down inside- when you know something is going to happen that will change you, and you don't want it to, but you can't stop it.

And you know for the first time, for the very first time that there will now be a before and an after, a was and a will be. And that you will never again quite be the same person you were.

I tried to do handstands for you

Let me say winter break is amazing :) I love vegetating and not having to worry about school, though my grades came out and they aren't amazing.

I went to visit my brother in Arizona & that was fun. My flight being delayed 3 hours--that was not fun.

I love that I still have my high-school friends where most of the college friends I've met say "oh, I don't even keep in touch my with high-school friends anymore" or something to that effect. I enjoy the fact that we can all get together after not seeing each other for awhile and act like complete idiots, laugh at everything, talk about nothing, and simply enjoy each other's company. 

It's amazing, some people, they just say these small little things. One sentence and it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall madly in love. It changes everything, nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they don't know it, it still happens.

Mmmm, I do things--some I wish I had never done and some I wish I could replay a million times. But, they all make me who I am and in the end, they shape and detail me. If I were to reserve them, I wouldn't be the same person I am today. 

So just live. Make mistakes & have wonderful memories. 

The noblest pleasure is the joy of understanding

When exactly do we go from kids to people?

I'm not certain. 

I do know that it's not about turning a certain age or graduating from high school or college. It happens when you're not paying attention. Without our knowledge or consent, childhood slips away into the night and our innocence escapes us and we wake up one morning to find that we have become who we are.